Wednesday, December 28, 2016

I'm Expecting!!!

I’m Expecting!!!....

Remember when your first received knowledge that conception had occurred? It was either because you felt different and received confirmation of the change or it was because finally something you had been attempting had been achieved.  Perhaps it was a total surprise, unplanned in every way…

There were moments of fear, anxiety, joy and mystery in the miracle of it all…

A hodge-podge of emotions I’m sure. 

There were weeks, perhaps months that you kept it to yourself. Either because decisions needed to be made concerning the information or because you simply wanted to protect it.  You didn’t want anything or anyone to infiltrate your bliss with compromised energy.  Regardless of the method of the connection, this thing was yours.

You grew together over time while you held and incubated this unknown familiarity.  What it received in nourishment, is solely connected to what you gave.  It was yours.

Time passed and the anticipation grew.  There were days that the growth was so rapid that you could hardly contain it.  When you sat, you wanted to be standing and when you stood all you wanted was a seat.  Sleepless nights mounted while the most consistent advice you received was…”get some rest”!

And as the time drew near and labor began the discomfort was inevitable…There was pain and contracting, but this was dulled, even slightly by the anticipation of the birth and the life that you would meet on the other side of that great pain.

So today I confess…..Yes….I AM EXPECTING!!!

I am in labor with a sweet little girl named Destiny.  I have nurtured and nourished her and now I am in labor.  The contractions are growing stronger and closer together. There has been great pain in order to birth her into reality, but she will be worth it!

I can’t wait to meet you, my child…Destiny Purpose Me

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

For my Queens...

THEE I AM FACTOR connects us with our spark of Divinity. 

A spark that could not be diminished, depleted, starved, ignored, forsaken, abandon, misunderstood, judged, raped, molested as a child, or killed through self-inflicted tragedy, broken heartedness, promiscuity-over active sexual behavior, poor choices,

Your divine spark isn’t lost if you are unemployed and have no money, it can’t be put out because you are overweight or under-weight, drug addiction or any other external factor. 


You are here today because regardless of what you have experience, your spark remained.
We had previously been formed in His image and likeness, so to me, that likeness is the “spark of Divinity” that enables me to tap into this I AM FACTOR.
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Who Are You?

If who you are is determined by what you do or what your responsibilities are than you have given the power of your identity to an external force. If that force has no more use for you, you have lost your identity

Today I choose ME

Today I choose ME!

I remember when I first experience the instructions given on an airplane before takeoff. I was traveling from Virginia to Providence RI (headed to Boston) and my 4 year old son was with me. I had flown before and I may have paid attention to the presentation explaining what to do in the event of an emergency landing, but while traveling with my most precious and cherished gift, I paid strict attention, for the first time.  After explaining the exits of the plane and how the seat becomes a floatation device, the flight attendants said something that I was certain, did not apply to me.  The instructions seemed to be specifically targeted to my circumstance, however the content was for someone else.  The voice across the speaker system said that if an emergency occurred, that I was to cover myself with the oxygen mask first, even before I attempted to cover any minor passengers accompanying me.  This applied to my situation because my baby, then only child, a tender 4 years old was seated beside me.  I separated myself from the information though because if ANYTHING happened on that aircraft, I would do as I had always done and save him first!

In the days and weeks to follow this awakening moment, I begin to fully process it’s meaning.  I realized that they may have actually been correct.  If I am full/whole/breathing with ease, then I could function so much more efficiently when it came to providing for the needs of those depending on me.  If I, on the contrary, was struggling and disheveled, disoriented and loosing focus because I was a fraction of the resources that he truly needed, I ran the risk of hurting both of us because I couldn’t help either.

This is the day that I learned that it was not bad if I took care of myself first.  Love yourself first and out of the overflowing abundance, you can shine your love on others.  Be healthy yourself and you are better equipped to be a caregiver of others. It’s a simple mathematical formula really. . .

If I am 50% of the woman I have the capacity to be, then my reservoir to extend myself to my passions and responsibilities is coming from this half tank.  If there are two directions that I want to split my attention between, the both, if split equally can have a maximum of 25% of me.  However if I am operating at 100%, how much more can I give to the causes that mean something to me. 

Choose You First!